I am going to change my yahoo i.d. again.
I hate the name I have. It's retarded. It sounds emo and it makes me wanna cut.
I need something not so retarded when I have to give the email to certain places. And they are like 'wtf is wrong with this bish'.
There are some people on it that I want to go away and this will be the easiest to make that happen.
Maybe then I'll actually sign on again.
Yesterday was that thing I dreaded doing. But I sucked it up and went into it with an open mind.
I do feel a little better today. A smidgen.
About |--| that much. I have a feeling this is going to be a long road. I need it though.
I realized that yesterday.
I had planned on just going to get through the upcoming event, but I've decided that muh biddy and muh Punkie were right.
I do need it and I just might be worth it. :)
I think this is going to have to be one of those entries I make every month. I'll make it an FAQ section. heh.
1. Will you add me to your friends list?
Me: No, probably not. If you are a person I enjoy speaking with or enjoy in general than I more than likely will. However, if I've never spoken to you, then no.
COMMENTS
Will you let me tie you up and do naughty things to you?
:P
I'll have to thi...Yes, Yes you can! ;)
It's cause we all want some MooniePie :D
But if everyone rates them a 10 and adds them to their friends list then that can be a sire before they hit 1,000 page views.
Fuck'em all.
I am having a hard time being 'social'. I just really.. have no desire to be. Like I would rather stare out the window and look at the clouds than sit here and just babble about nothing.
I'm not mad at anyone, sad about anything or anything crazy. Maybe it's just being overwhelmed and I am not sure what to do with it so I just work it out in quiet.
Then again maybe I am crazy and they will give me some kick ass drugs, a rawkin' straight jacket and let me color all the time.
That'd be sweet.
COMMENTS
Straight jackets. I call them, hug me jackets, because that's what they put you in when you're so bad off not even the psych's wanna hug you! ;P
I can totally relate!!
lol Bones we call them we love myself jackets..
I call them, " haha you cannot escape me, so now I will do everything I want to do to you" jackets. :D
O.o Only Moonie can make stright jackets kinky in my mind... Thanks for that.
*humps Moonies leg*
:)
I prefer to think that when I go to the mental ward they let me dress up like Jim Carey in Ace Ventura when he goes to the mental hospital...... tutus' and hiking footballs thats the life.
or ...
maybe you just need a shot of vitamin KK :)
i love joo :)
I finished reading Harry Potter again. For like the billionth time. And every damn time I get to the last book I cry. Jeebus.
Most people cry when Bambi's mom got killed. Oh, no not me. I only cry when Harry puts the snitch up to his mouth and says "I am going to die", Holy Goodness.
Gah. I'm a smuck. -shifty eyes-
Ugh. No More.
No More. No More. No More.
When it's not one thing it's another. Or when it is one thing, suddenly other stuff just seems to decide to happen at the same time.
After avoiding it for months and months, I now have to go see one of them . I do not want to. I will not handle it well. I do not want to talk about it. I just want it to be over. It will not make me better. It will probably just make me even more angry.
Then I have to prepare to go to a hearing. Why? Because I am not a fifth generation government-screw-er-over, I've managed to not have kids, to not have some sort of crack addiction that puts me on the street, I've never been to jail, and oh let's not forget, I actually have someone that gives a damn about me and won't push me onto the streets so I won't die in a ditch some place because of my issues.
I really question the ideas of things.
Official " Oh, I see you've not had any children, you don't smoke crack on a regular basis, you're not prostituting, you've never been to jail, and you've never really been any kind of a problem within society. Well, I'm sorry I am going to have to decline you for any kind of help because you're just not fucked up enough to earn it.
Oh but, now you, YOU on the other hand with 20 kids by 20 different people, smoke crack and do heroin, you've been arrested for making a meth lab in your bathtub, and you would rather turn tricks than actually doing something that requires your brain and not your back. Now YOU are the prime candidate for help! here take it all! USE it ALL! It's okay, you are just fucked up enough to receive help! We are so glad we have you!"
It's so friggin stupid.
COMMENTS
*hugs*
*hugs tight*
I know how you feel. Trust me...government help is totally fucked up.
*licks*
We love you Moonie!
ack!
How humiliating and humbling.
I hope it works out alright.
COMMENTS
-
WildChild
22:20 Sep 27 2009
but.. but... but.....
meeper
23:57 Oct 01 2009
Invisibility is a godsend.